Now.

My inspiration spoke to me today of a topic that I've been toying with for quite a long time-- taking a break.

I regret the announcement, for I do love what I do and I enjoy making things that are worth my time.

But I guess that's where the problem occurs--
I'm feeling less and less as though what I do makes a difference. So, I need to do something that I feel does make a difference. I'm going to focus harder on some of my other arts. I want to learn how to play my violin, I want to make a few different crochet-ing projects, I want to write a play (no matter how short or how qualitative, I just want to write a script from beginning to end), I want to get in shape, I want to be able to enjoy my busy time with my love, I want to help my love achieve his highest goals, I want to be able to reconnect with my family, I want to be able to feel fulfilled and happy without the help of anyone else.

I know how to do this.
I grew up with the skill.
But
I grew up very much alone and wanting to be with another person constantly takes away that somewhat-lonely-but-very-productive self-time.

Now, I'll be able to go to Tall Toads. Now, I'll be able to change/fix clothes that I have to get rid of/change and keep the things I should. Now, I'll be able to sit down and really donate some time to everything.

Now, I continue to become a better person.