Careful...

Regardless of representation, and even if attitudes need be altered, it is important to remember that no one may inform any other person of how to feel.

It is simply part of our free will.

The darker side

As I sit outside on this beautiful overcast day,  I ponder my very existence and recall memories.
As a child, I always loved the villains. Even if frightening,  I found their stories and personalities intriguing,  their style enviable,  and their power delicious. I find in myself as I age, that I have a tendency towards 'evil'. An ease of lying,  deceitfulness, bullying, often even subconsciously.  Now whether this is naturally part of me, or I've learned as a defensive technique,  it is hard to say.  A bit of both,  if I had to answer.

While still something I feel shame towards,  I take pride in not shying away from my darkness. I know it sets me apart, causes me to feel alone; but I can also sense that power. I feel it.

I fight to be good.  And I try to be kind.  But that automatic reaction of "FUCK OFF" never really goes away.


So.  I remind myself of this:
Everything we do matters. Good or bad,  right or wrong.

It does matter.

Please want to

We as humans must want to survive. We have been given the distinct opportunity to choose.

We must want to be fed. Or to be housed.

We must want to be loved. Or to be important. 

We must want to achieve excellence, or even change at all. 

We must want to need. We must want to want. 

We must want to live. 

We must want. 

Acknowledge the want and address it. Grow from it. Grow with it. 

Overcome it.

And find another. 

But--

Please want. Please live. 

I will continue to want with you. 

Please want to hope for tomorrow. 

Because it's all up to you.

And I want for you.